Thinking deep and hard

I'm thinking of you every now and then keai , i not sure if it's right.

Jus following what my heart is saying.

4mths plus after enlistment

Life in army have been filling up my life now. Have been getting fitter and fitter and getting to know more about our Singapore army and train to be a soldier to protect our loves ones and so is our country.

Life in army have been alright, my friends all were sort of worried i would be turn down by the life of army as i wouldn't have much freedom. i agree this to a certain extend.

That one day when i message Janice from kiehl's. she was asking me about how's life in camp and how is my love life. i told her life in camp was great as my bunk mates are all enthusiast and helpful. Love life wise boring. still the same.

Just the other day, i was talking to my friend that our life seems kind of bored/sian without having a 'target girl' to go after. it seems like part of our life is missing which is LOVE.

There isn't someone who we just wanna share our happiness, sadness and nonsense with. =(

Just a few hours ago, i was out dinner with 2 friend, we were chit chatting away that, we seems to be unable to know what's the feeling like of being love and to love someone already. And this was true. We lost touch of it.

All that i wanted was just a simple love life or relationship. i never knew that it would be this hard. If i didn't remember wrongly, it caught me so hard that i felt to give up on it as it was so tiring. All ideals GFs that i could have are all attached already and none are left.

I have lots of regrets though.

Now inside SCS le, life in army would be more n more xiong during this period of time as its a specialist course. i really do miss being in a relationship. sigh.

Counting down....

Today its 23rd alrdy, 11 more days till i'm enlisted to NS. And each single day that jus pass seems to be pointless.. i duno how to put it but, i jus miss you and wanna talk to you that badly. i do not know of what ways i'm able to talk to you. or maybe till the veri day i go tekong alrdy, we probably still wont talk ba. sigh...

shld i carry on or shld i jus back off alrdy? enlighten me.

ytd i jus told janice that when a guy going after a girl, he shldn't show him attitude and signs of emoness, but today here i am, emo-ing away. thinking back, what exactly went wrong? clueless still i am. There are so many possibilities, but i chose not to believe in those.

soh, sis, zw alrdy asleep on the bed except me. hahas dazing onto the com, thinking how was your performance today? =/
Hesitated i was today, whether to go down to support you anot, thinking see you le then? what if you really dun wanna see me/ or tok to me? would i spolit your day and such.

i'm seriously am thinking too much, aren't i? slack my day off at home till go back shop pass uniform and come soh hse. arghhh...

i can't get you off my head. you leave me breathless. really and seriously. =/

Cursed hand. LOLS

Sigh.. My hand duno is recovering or worsening sia. Its like the patch is spreading.. =.= stupid sia!! idiotic medics who duno how to get blood from me.. RAGHHH!!!


This is my right hand. Blood test was taken at SGH, it wasn't that worse compare to the ones below.

LOOK BELOW!!!

Day 4

Day 4 - Second view.

7th day. look... its like chao ta skin la. =.= Its a biggest Blue black i ever kanna sia.

but it seems not as dark as the past few days..

Please recover soon. Its super pain and i can't lie on it to slp. >.<

Pray for me to recover soon ppl.

hahas.. i miss my keai!! its been decades since i last see her..

I'm late for work today, woke up at 830 whereby i have to rch by 830. I'm super tired for this few days, not sure why also, but aniwae... going to slp now. so bye!

Tired.. Zzzz i need slp.

Lately have been super tiring. Been to help out in a event of YOG at Singapore Sports School at woodlands for the past 2 days. Went for NS medical checkup, they ask me to go back SGH to get a memo from them stating that my leg injury is fit for NS. .... And here's what happen after the blood test jab again.


Day 1 after jab.


Day 2 after jab.

i begin to wonder why i so suay de. 2 time blood test. both kanna. this blue black or rather blood stuck under my SKIN!! LOLs And my hand got not much strength now.. pain also. stupid medic...

Aniwae this year christmas very jia lat. going to be a poor christmas liao. hahas =.= broke totally.

Changing back, jus like doing a magic.

For the past 2 weeks, been clubbin twice. drink drank smoke... all this were so not me de things all happen. However, it will end as i'm turning back.
No more of those nonsense. BYE to cig!

SO i shall say this, i'm not a clubber and i won't want to club unless its a celebration or sum what.
But to kelvin bro, will still go once or twice with you, if u really want to go. cos i know i'm at fault now. hahas Sorry!

Woah, my sup still dun wan give me work to do. =.= and my computer has been occupied eversince we move to the new office. cui la. really want me everyday come work watch video, play fb ar??? den like that how i bomb my report sia??? =.= LOL

=)

Ytd woke up at 1plus, slack at home till 3.30pm den head to childhood fren hse and pass him some games before i head out wifh kelvin soh buddy to town.. Hahas shopping time

Aniwae, bought a pair of shoes, a shirt and got my face cleanser at store. Told jiamei(mummy) in store that i went clubbing ytd and my experience there, she was shock and happy that i did go. Say what i grow up alrdy sia and blah blah blah.

Then, she say this which makes me =.= She say girls dance with you, why you never hold them? she say i stupid sia.. WTF LO!!! what an answer...

Believe it anot readers! hahas, i Seriously didn hold any girls at all. and the reply i get from ppl that i hold them was , why so stupid sia... LOLSHmm anwiae, gonna be eating grass soon alrdy. cannot keep spending unless otherwise..

hahas Today shall jus slack ard at home and etc.