A week without talking to you for more than 2 sentences

Its been a week since we last talk. I duno what happen. i msg u, there was a cold reply or there isn't any. =/ still awaiting for u to contact me as u say u will text me other days. but i wonder when. if its becos of ur bf, u could jus tel me so. we are alrdy more than jus frens isn't it? i'm really missing u deep down in my heart. i dun want things to change. you said it urself too. =(

3 hours before fieldcamp

Jus 3 more hours till moving out from bunk till outfield camp, lying on the bed thinking about you.
Something that i have been thinking about. I'm still contradicting about my decisions although i know i shld stay strong on it. Perhaps this is the bad things about me ba. But i really wanna stay strong on my decision to go to like you like this. So many chances i had but didn't manage to get hold of it.

This time round i gonna stay strong, do not wanna care about how other ppl would think of me even if i gonna be a bad person.

Seeing your smile always melts my heart and brighten my day, which is y i'm always making you laugh to see your smile.

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know life so far away
But I know that its just a trip
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I'Ve build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?


i'm gonna miss you keai. it would be 3 days not being able to talk to u. =(

Thinking deep and hard

I'm thinking of you every now and then keai , i not sure if it's right.

Jus following what my heart is saying.