fuck u bastard!

Knn. u wanna yell at me.. jus try fucking with me again. i make sure u have no fucking shit face to live in the house. u asshole! jus becos i'm not helping mum u wanna say the money she earn from the fucking chocolate bouquet sales u introduce to her means i would be using that money.. jus fuck it!!! u are only making mum tired and u are not even helping a single shit. u dare to even threathen her that she dun wanna do anymore u would let ur frens auntie or whatever do??? fuck U!!!! u knn cccb!! this little money has brought mom tireness. u tink its worth it? u are jus making use of mum... asshole!!! i tel u.. i have pay u back the last shit of money.. i wont even bother asking u for anything anymore.

just 1 more time u trigger me. i tel u all your shitty things u did in that room and whatever i know i will speak all out.. FUCK OFF!

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Its been awhile since i last blog.

Have been always there for you. i don't ask for anyting in return, jus hope all the worries will be gone for u and u r doing fine.

Today, the convo with you sumhow affected me quite abit. i duno how to react suddenly. sigh.
i felt that i didn have that confidence to go for it anymore. How?

It's just like finding a passage way out of the cave, but at this split-way, i find a path with shimmering light which tels me its the exit. I enter it and it led me further deep into the cave once more. that light that i saw was gone. sigh..

This heartache that i felt makes me feel its true, i have fallen for you.

i'm feeling terrible now. if only you could pull me out of this now, but i know it wont happen that fast.


You must not be among the list that i refer to curse about. Because you are the one which made me felt the fast beating of heartbeat for the very first time in my life. i dun want this to end just like that. ='(

Cursed hand. LOLS

Sigh.. My hand duno is recovering or worsening sia. Its like the patch is spreading.. =.= stupid sia!! idiotic medics who duno how to get blood from me.. RAGHHH!!!


This is my right hand. Blood test was taken at SGH, it wasn't that worse compare to the ones below.

LOOK BELOW!!!

Day 4

Day 4 - Second view.

7th day. look... its like chao ta skin la. =.= Its a biggest Blue black i ever kanna sia.

but it seems not as dark as the past few days..

Please recover soon. Its super pain and i can't lie on it to slp. >.<

Pray for me to recover soon ppl.

hahas.. i miss my keai!! its been decades since i last see her..

I'm late for work today, woke up at 830 whereby i have to rch by 830. I'm super tired for this few days, not sure why also, but aniwae... going to slp now. so bye!

Tired.. Zzzz i need slp.

Lately have been super tiring. Been to help out in a event of YOG at Singapore Sports School at woodlands for the past 2 days. Went for NS medical checkup, they ask me to go back SGH to get a memo from them stating that my leg injury is fit for NS. .... And here's what happen after the blood test jab again.


Day 1 after jab.


Day 2 after jab.

i begin to wonder why i so suay de. 2 time blood test. both kanna. this blue black or rather blood stuck under my SKIN!! LOLs And my hand got not much strength now.. pain also. stupid medic...

Aniwae this year christmas very jia lat. going to be a poor christmas liao. hahas =.= broke totally.

Changing back, jus like doing a magic.

For the past 2 weeks, been clubbin twice. drink drank smoke... all this were so not me de things all happen. However, it will end as i'm turning back.
No more of those nonsense. BYE to cig!

SO i shall say this, i'm not a clubber and i won't want to club unless its a celebration or sum what.
But to kelvin bro, will still go once or twice with you, if u really want to go. cos i know i'm at fault now. hahas Sorry!

Woah, my sup still dun wan give me work to do. =.= and my computer has been occupied eversince we move to the new office. cui la. really want me everyday come work watch video, play fb ar??? den like that how i bomb my report sia??? =.= LOL

=)

Ytd woke up at 1plus, slack at home till 3.30pm den head to childhood fren hse and pass him some games before i head out wifh kelvin soh buddy to town.. Hahas shopping time

Aniwae, bought a pair of shoes, a shirt and got my face cleanser at store. Told jiamei(mummy) in store that i went clubbing ytd and my experience there, she was shock and happy that i did go. Say what i grow up alrdy sia and blah blah blah.

Then, she say this which makes me =.= She say girls dance with you, why you never hold them? she say i stupid sia.. WTF LO!!! what an answer...

Believe it anot readers! hahas, i Seriously didn hold any girls at all. and the reply i get from ppl that i hold them was , why so stupid sia... LOLSHmm anwiae, gonna be eating grass soon alrdy. cannot keep spending unless otherwise..

hahas Today shall jus slack ard at home and etc.

Lazy Monday. =.=

Yesterday, went to work @ kiehl's, the feeling of working in kiehl's is still as great. doesn't change much. =) But now thinking of having such a long attachment, doesn't seems quite right for me. =/ Zzz Jus hope i wont regret doing this now as there's no way to undo this alrdy.

Last nite rch home ard 1030, had my supper and watch ' Confession of a shopaholics'. Lols, i must say, the guy in the show Hugh Dancy sure looks like Michael Garry, a lecturer in my School. LOLs the way he talk and acts looks exactly like him.
Kind of miss those lesson we have with him though.

Now talking about today.
Firstly, Eugene took his Deepavali leave Today! which makes me super sian to the max, cause with him around, we can talk non-stop if there isn't any work to do. But now, beside waiting for the meeting which i not even sure if there still is. I'm totally bored out. My supervisor doesn't seems to be here for work, and if thats so, it means we will be sitting here doing nth the entire day again. =/ Yawn!!!

Today really feeling super lazy, didn even bother to style my hair and jus when out straight with nth on my hair, no hats, no caps, no wax. LOLS just a messy day today! I keep feeling like slping though, eyes wanting to shut but can't. >.<

Just hope time would end fast today and let me go home and rest, it's psychically torturing to be here at work doing NTH! sigh.