X_X

Guess What, i almost got caught again dozing off by my colleagues while waiting for the GM to come, =.= They didn not come. sigh. make me wait there so long, cos we were told to standby, but i jus merely close my eyes for 5 mins, den my colleagues came in and say might not the demo alrdy. ARGH!!! almost hai me gt fired!..

Sigh, regret going for a jog when my leg injury was feeling better, now the condition seems like worsen alrdy. WTH!!!

But i do enjoy the jog last nite, though now my legs muscles aching all over, hahas
It has been quite awhile since i last went for one. =)

Did lots of thinking i actually wonder why, hope i wont be fallen too deeply into it, but everytime say only, Cfm will fall deep deep wan. sigh!!! just hope its worthwhile ba.

Lately, keep wanting to drown myself in music songs, which makes me wonder if 1 day my phone not with me, how will i become, becos my songs are all inside. lols

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Hmm, its been sometime since i last update my blog.

Hadn't been nth much recently beside shifting my current workplace to a meeting room where i can go msn n stuff, but still boring. ~~

Recently met this someone who seems special in a way or two. Its first time someone like that i met though, i hope its a miracle that is about to happen to me. =) i have been thinking of that someone lately, cant just leave my fone on sight for a moment, =p hahas . Hope things will turn out better .

>.<

Today really sit in front of the com and do my 3D modelling thoughout the entire day there. Rarely leave my sit even, lucky today finish the model le, tml will be just doing some texturing only.

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Sigh, of all thing come this right chest pain. Scaring the shit out of me cos i not sure if its heart pain or wat. Not sure what to do also. =( fuck man, am i going to die? how come i nv working out also get pain all over my entire body ? WTF is going on?????

bore, bore, bore...~~~

Jus finish rendering the pictures and submitted to supervisior, he ask me to be on standby in case there's need for changes. So i am waiting now, there's nth for me to do at all now. wanna slp but can't. And And the GM walk pass me when i was about to lower my head. LOLS, scare me to hell sia. lucky i act doing head excerise den he smile at me. O_O hahas

I hope someone can give me a good good suggestion n tel me what to do under this condition.
I have computer which are being restricted to use MSN, social Networking site like FB and friendster, No audio and video playback on Web. No chatting on website as well, even tagboard on blogs also cannot go. Can play webgames but alwaes gt ppl walk past my desk. HOW HOW!!! DO WHAT SIA... I DO 3D modelling until want slp already. Can say i do computer screen tanning. cos its purely jus put my eyes on computer and do nth.!!! =/

This makes me monday BLUE lo.

15/08/2009 + 16/08/2009 Saturday + Sunday

Today woke up pretty early as was awoke by my bro. He's leaving to Malacca with jasmine for a holiday trip. =) good for them, seeing them so loving and etc. Enjoy ur trip ya!!!

Another reason for waking up early was becos had to head to polyclinic to checkup for my leg, no improvement though. The doctor see awhile den say refer me to specialist at SGH. hmm have to go for a appointment on 08/09/2009. After finish consulting the doc, accompanied my mum in to her turn for consultation. Mum actually forgot to take her medication and when the doc take her blood pressure, it was high. Thus have to return there 2 weeks later for another checkup.

After finishing the checkup and blah blah blah, accompany my mom to help grandma to buy some stuff nearby our hse den head home le.

Had my dinner and then head over to suntec by bus to see and cheer for Kelvin & Connie team for suntec dance 2009 competition. They manage to advance to the next stage. Congratz ya! Jia You and keep up the good work!

We had dinner at pasta mania and walk ard suntec before heading back.

Ard 8/9plus, headed to Connie'e hse to gt Kel's laptop and cab back to my hse to get my hse den head to his hse. LOLs was rushing out in the afternoon thus forget to take my specs along with me.

Went over to stayover to kel hse, wanted to chat wif him initialy, but seeing him so tired so decided to drop that idea. Had a couple round of Dota game with him on garena. Reason for going his hse was for pure slacking ard. Slept at 3plus as both of us are really tired, if not can play will morning. LOLs

Woke up the next morning at ard 12plus and started to dl apps for my phone. den another few games of Dota and den watch some videos on youtube. Headed home ard 9pm after shower.

=D

Eversince the 4th week of attachment, i have been having more n more time to come blog le. lols
sometime the work here can be extremely boring, especially when the supervisior is not here. Totally can say face com do nth. And when that happen, i will tink of going msn and find ppl chat.

I'm now hoping that we will receive news that we will leave to the new office early so that there wont be so much restricition. I'm now looking forward to everyday event. Wonder what will it be like and etc. Hope that that ting can keep me motivated! =P

i'm indeed slowly finding my way back into ____. Pray for me ya?
Duno y still, bro told me that ting that day on the phone when i wasn't tinking of that, heh bro what do u tink i am sia? know me so long le still tink that i'm that kind of person meh??? idiot.

Oh ya! This coming saturday is Kelvin and Connie Dance competition @ Suntec! jia you ar!! Ppl who like hiphop can go down and watch and give support ya? =)

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Woah its going to be a long day already.

Firstly, my partner is not here with me in the office which leaves me alone at my desk. Sianz.
This is getting boring already. Now left to work, work, work. 3D modelling and nth else. yawnzzz

Suddenly got the urge to go msn n see whose online to chat with. but access is not allow here. =_=

ciaoz then, gtg work le. =(

hmmm =/

I'm thinking should i or should i not?
i'm not sure of myself n doesn't have much confident... hmmm sigh.. dead tired today! turning in early. nite world!

Fun, Busy, Tiring!

10/09/2009 Sunday

Today woke up ard 10plus, couldn't even slp later. =.= but was feeling quite energentic after waking up. Was awaken by my brother who kept moving in and out of the room, so ya. Woke up le decided to ask him pack his stuff and clear the stuff on the floor in our room! couldn't stand the messiness in the room at all. And now it is much neater, decided to go oout to shop for a wall clock.

Went out with kel, connie and kame(connie's fren) to shop ard town cos connie get to drive again. lols =) so met up with kel at sengkang and connie pick us up there as she went swimming with her fren earlier on. Went bugis first cos went the wrong road the town and exited at wrong exit. Kame and connie bought stuff le and we headed to town.

Kelvin went to braid his hair @ Far East Plaza is super DOPE and COOL la, sort of suits him now, he is now longer a lion king but a "Allen Iverson" now plus a cool hip hop dancer. hahas =)

Jus Started.

Hang in there bro. i know very pain, Cos your scalp turn red alrdy.

Its done soon! jus one last step.

Headed over to Pasta mania and have our dinner there and rush over to Heeren to get kame Num Havanas cos they having a last day 2 items @ 50%. So decided to help her by getting 1 havanas for myself as well.

Headed to 4Skins to get the wall clock that i saw before which cos me 90bucks. lols but its worth it la cos i wanted it.

This is the clock i bought. Bloody hell, sort of gt scam, cos couldn't hook onto the wall. Cal the shop and check alrdy. They told me their display could hang and gt the hole to hook becos for repair purpose.. WTH!!!

hahas. aniwae the day was half spolit when i saw that bitch in 4skins. =.= didn wish to see her and her stupid ex there. WTH! waited behind her frens summore during the queue for payment and when heading over to meet kel they all at NUM they were there too. Argh!! but was alrite after awhile. hmmm...

Heh dun turn the pipe. Ppl need water la.!!!

We catch another movie again, we watch hangover @ cineplexes. it was hilarious and nice. So do catch it ya? =p

Went back home ard 12plus and decided to hop on to bed after bath at ard 1plus. But couldn't get to slp, duno y though. Did some crazy and stupid stuff to make myself asleep. So this is wat i did, the whole procedures, I hop on to bed trying to slp, was thinking it was quite warm so on the air-con. After turning here and there, still not asleep and i felt that i was more energetic than b4. =.= So was thinking perhaps i was too cold to get to slp. so Off the air-con and try again.

There was a moment i thought i was dreaming that i couldn't slp in my dream. SO wth and funny. =p So i decide to make my eyes tired by playing game on my fone. But to no improvement. And i actually did this, on the fan to the max and put my eyes in front of it. Allowing the wind to blow into my eyes to make it tired. But still no improvement.

Damn pissed off, i have to wake up early in the morning to report for work @ 830a.m. and i still couldn't get to slp when its already 3.plus a.m. WTH!!! i was thinking i would eventually either be late for work or go to work feeling damn tired and shag. But due to respect to the ppl there and also putting my grading of attachment to concern i decided that i shldn't be late for work, so here i am feeling damn shaggy and tired. Couldn't really start my work at all. Hopefully the 1hr break will give me some energy. yawn!!! Zzz

08/09/2009 Friday + 09/09/2009 Saturday

Today met up with Kel to woodland there to see Connie and her dance group performance for the Pre-national day celebration. After which rush back to connie's hse and put down our stuff. We were thinking of wathcing a midnight show cos connie could drive us out. So i check online for seatings for the Show G.I. Joe. The show was superbly nice. =D We enjoy watching it. However the seats at Causeway point cathay wasn't that comfortable. Having a long time seating there will cause u backpain. We watch till 2plus and headed back to connie's hse to rest.

Awhile later or shld i say less than 5 mins, kel took the mahjong table in and we started mahjong. Though i was qute reluctant to play cos of being overly tired. lols Pull myself throughout the game and finally manage to finish the game in the morning 5plus. A.M. Damn shag. Slept awhile till ard 12plus and woke up le. Connie went off for her meeting with her dance group for another preformance at Sembawang.

Waited quite long for their turn to perform, I must say that their organising skills sucks. Everything delay and even the money they suppose to get on that day also couldn't take? Is like so WTF. Make us waited there after the performance like idoits. No1 dare to approach them to ask again. Other groups In-charge, of their own performance demand the ppl to pay them cash straight. and to us he told us run of petty cash and there were miscommunication and blah blah blah. Damn idiotic.!! shitty ass! i think next time no1 will ever wan to perform for them again.

After the long waiting. i headed home despite kel trying to persuade me to Connie hse again for pizza. Was damn shag so decided to head home to have a good rest.

Everything was fun and i enjoy myself to the max when i'm out with them. =)

>.<

07/08/2009 Friday

Hmmm.. Today did nth much beside doing someting for the task given, but it seems that there is lack of something leh. Can't find out what it lacks still. =/ Getting bored now leh, tink even got msn also might be bored. hmmmmm!!! sian ar... kelvin bro and connie sis all busy with their dance cos gt competition at Suntec next sat.

Nowadays after work jiu head home le, wat a boring life lo. reali damn sian. ppl find me out leh! lols but mus interest me ar! hahas

Oh ya forget to post this. Mom is damn nice, she is going to buy me n bro a wall closet and its coming tml i tink. It cost quite abit though $2K-plus, i decided to give my part of mayb 500 i tink. Though not alot but jus wanna help to lighten the burden.

Still gt 2 more hours to go. yawn. Can't wait to get out of here, cos gt to pack my stuff.
Zzzz

I miss everyone at Kiehl's, Very long nv go back le, due to tight schedule. Hope they are doing fine and kel bro they all doing fine for their dance practices. =) Cya soon ya?

Woo-hooo

06/08/2009 Thursday

Had been having this kind of tired feeling lately, keep wanting to fall asleep during work, but have to persevere no matter wat. sigh. Back home now, keep going to bed ard 10pm, don't even have the strength to stay up late now. =_= so unlike me la.

Eversince ytd, i have been working on dual monitor PC. hahas, borrow and unused monitor and pluck into my CPU, this is becos i doing modelling work, and following tutorial so have to use 2 monitor. Here's a preview of what i did.


First rendering of my starting work.



Second render with some stones.


Third render with stones and mist.



Hope you all can see the differenes. Different angle.

Hahas quite impress of what i did, though is learn from some other ppl from tutorial. But being able to do that is impressive le lo. hahas now moving on to the next stage le.. But can't say much. =X


A random work that i did with jingwu.


Did this sharingan eyes during free time in my attachment here.

Did this sharingan eyes also during some free time here.

Lucky today gt things for me to do, if not i will fall asleep again. hahas.

I want to go shop soon, i wanna watch movie. =(

Next sat gt bro dance competition, sunday gt to work @ kiehls. xiong sia. tiring week soon.

What is this feeling?

03/08/2009 Monday

Today is the beginning of my 5th week of attachment at ST Electronics. The people here are friendly and nice. But the workload here can be boring though. Hopefully interesting stuff start to come in ba, if not life here will really be miserable.

Now lunchtime le, but i stay in, as i ate mom prepared breakfast. My colleagues and jing wu all went out for lunch le.

So now decided to blog, Ytd went to kel hse and play mahjong and dota, he damn lucky. We play 3-man mahjong ytd cos gt only me, zw n kel. Kel won 23bucks, zw lost 16 n i lost 7, but kel was nice to let me pay him 4 bucks. lols.. next time den treat u back ya? lmao

Last night didn slp early, which causes me to be half awake now. tired...

Listen to my phone music b4 i went to bed. had this thought out of sudden.

"What is the feeling of liking someone?" i asked myself.
i couldn't answer suddenly. But i know if you like someone, the person's feeling will affect you and you will treat the person super nice no matter what.

I have this feeling in heart, i fallen out of love. People ard me say is becos the right one haven appear. At times, i though so too, but now I have this weird weird feeling. I suddenly don't like being single. Though i keep telling ppl single also good. sigh. Jus what's wrong with me?

Being alone when friends are not ard makes me aimless and pointless to live. Yes, i agree there are still family members, but time spend with them is different. The feeling is different.

I don't know what i'm writing also. Perhaps they are just rubbish. Jus feel like venting it out.

I thought of the past relationship i had. Though they are short, but sweet. I know i was the bad guy, but back then my thinking is so childish and foolish, it cannot be entirely my fault rite?. If only my thinking was more mature in the past, perhaps i wouldn't hurt them. But now asking for a second chance from them is as impossible as reaching for the sky. *laugh at myself..

Furthermore, already been so long le, what's more can i say?

If tings can be reverse, some things might be nice, but at times it might not be, for instance, the girls zui you instead. lols what am i thinking?

sigh. sigh. sigh.

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01/08/2009 Saturday

Today had been a tiring day. duno y. perhaps becos i'm sick ba. Stayed home the whole day feeling helpless and aimless. sigh.